Utterly Flattered

There are certain songs out there that I just would love to have been the inspiration for, or at least had had the song written for me. I remember listening to this one song by the Flaming Lips in which they say, “Do you realize that you have the most beautiful face,” and I just said to my friend Rachel that I’d be so flattered if that song had been written for me. Looking back, I can remember making a few comments to Jay about it, but they were just purely comments, I was not hinting AT ALL. I never even dreamt that Jay would even think of writing a song for me, it just never crossed my mind. Even when I began to teach him guitar and he started strumming little things of his own.

When I saw Jay on Friday, he said that he had a surprise for me a little later on. Surprises from Jay have always been great, so I was dying to see what it would be. When we got to his house and went to his room, my guitar was laying on the bed with a piece of paper by it with a few written sentences on it. My first thought was that he was writing a song for me, but I didn’t think too seriously about it. But indeed, Jay had written a song for me! Well technically, he’s still in the process of writing it, but whatever. I just couldn’t believe he had actually felt compelled to write a song, and just because of me! It just amazes me. And the thing is, it’s his first song on guitar, and it was me that he had on his mind. The song’s about me being alone up in Minneapolis and he’s pretty much telling me that I’m not really ever alone and that it hurts him to know that I feel that way. Hehe, hope I’m not embarrassing him or anything…)

Not to sound corny or anything, but it was just the sweetest thing to hear him strum the tune and sing along to it. I love how the strumming sounds; the chords go really well together and it just sounds sweet and calming, almost like a modern lullaby or something. Kind of like “Goodbye and Farewell” by Smashing Pumpkins, only not quite so lullabyish.

Oh, I’m just so flattered by what Jay did, and I just had to write about it.